Breathe In Breathe Out...Take Away All Doubt.

Just BREATHE they screamed...
BREATHE...
As the sound became fainter and fainter...
BREATHE COME ON YOU CAN FIGHT THIS BREATHE....
Jab...Jab...JOLT ...Jab...
BREATHE...
COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH
GAG
COUGH..
Gasp.
Blackness...
ACK What's thats smell...
Welcome to my nightmare...a reality tonight.
How it all began?
Blood on my pillow case....and then followed by coughing up blood..
So...that got me...
Hyperventilating...blacking out...gasphing for air...
To which admitted me for about 9 hours...I was fighting pleading to come home...
The deal I had to make was to take a strong regiment of drugs...be injected with drugs...I left the hospital...hardly knowing who I am...
Ask my Dearest Scribe I left him a voice mail I'm sure he could tell I was drugged.
No worries...Only the good die young..so I should live forever.
So...for me Christmas is Cancelled.
See you Next Year.

I've been TAGGED...Get It Off...GET IT OFF!!!

As Tagged By My Dearest Scribe...End of the Year Stuff.
Um...it's that time of year where we whine about the previous year...do we get cheese too???So here is my list.


Question 1: What region of the country most disgusts you now?
Well, I'm in Michigan. So I guess I'll make my thought clear- www.boycottalabamanow.com. That is all I have to say about that.

What single person or action changed your perception of a group or individual?
I'd give that honour to Bush...he is the one who has made it clear to me that I will NEVER vote for a Republican as long as I live.

What moment confirmed your worst fears about the human race?
While my Dearest Scribe made a convincing arguement for the G Man...I'd like to nominate Prop 8 Passing in California. Gotta love any prop that takes away a RIGHT granted by the Courts.

What moment reaffirmed that tiny, hidden glimmer of optimism you pretend not to have?
Hands down, November 4th 2008.

Name one thing you realized was an exercise in futility this year.
FOX News.

Who let you down the most this year?
Oh now you've done it....ripped my heart out again...leaving it throbbing on the floor. Man oh man...some friend you are....so to put it bluntly...two have let me down this year...one obviously hurting more than the other.

If this were the year you were given a “do-over,” would you use it or exchange it for some other year?
1997...would change a meeting

Was there a book or film that affected you deeply this year? If so, what?
How about a book that is coming out I haven't been this hopeful in years.

Did anything become an addiction for you this year? If so, what and why?
Wow. I just admit to you my addiction and now you want me to tell the world...nooooooooooooooo.

What if anything about this year do you sincerely hope carries over into 2009?
Heh wouldn't you like to know.

I know one thing my Dearest Scribe hopes doesn't carry over into 2009 my blantant cynical-ness about everything and anything....that's what happens when your heart gets ripped out

Take a Stand And SUPPORT the BIG 3 and UAW.

From My Friends at 97.1 FM....who are strong supporters of the Big 3. This was thier promotion...I'm just posting it here for those who see this blog...to show your support of the Big Three. This is NOT a Detroit thing...this is a Country Thing....
United we stand or divided we ALL FALL! If the Big 3 fall, the suppliers, the support staff, everyone....will lose their jobs across the country not just in Michigan. It's silly to make this a Detroit thing....
I am PROUD to be a Michigander.
I am PROUD to support the Big 3
I am PROUD to be support the UAW and UNIONS!
AIG and CITIBANK got BILLIONS without any accountability....
AIG is giving "Rention Payments aka Bonuses" this year....WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS COUNTRY??????
------on to their promotion-----


STAND UP AND BE PROUD

SUPPORT THE BIG THREE

SEND YOUR COMMENTS SUPPORTING THE BIG THREE AND THE AUTO RESCUE BILL TO THE WHITE HOUSE

comments@whitehouse.gov

Daggers and other weapontry

Daggers. I am amazed at the degree of deceit that some will go to throw the daggers that hurt the most.
It can be as simple as a lie found out.
It can be as hard as someone you trust selling you out in the worst of ways. It's almost emotional blackmail. The one who knows your deepest secrets, fears, joys expects you not to ever walk away for fear of revelations.

Strength.
How can one find strength when they don't feel strong enough to stand up for their own morals or standards?

Heart.
Why do some treat it like a toy that can be tossed aside and replaced with a simple flick of the hand?

Truth.
When did it become ok to leave out/omit details that would lead the one to truth?

Emotion.
Is it ok not to be happy?

Friendship.
When did friendship mean get close to one so you can hurt them the most if they ever betray you. As the saying goes...keep your friends close but your 'frememies' closer.

Weapontry.
Why is the weapon of choice when it comes to the heart always seem to be a dagger to cut it out?

Daggers.
The shaper the better no?

Thankful or Not...It's Thanksgiving Everybody.

Hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving...and taking a cue from my Dearest Scribe I will post what I am thankful for this year thus far:

~Thankful for my family--we may not always get along but at least at this point everyone is healthy.

~Thankful for my cats--Baby Sherlock is looking better every single day. Here's hoping everything stays in remission.

~ Thankful that the country as a whole got it right and voted for the BEST candidate.

~ Thankful that I did pass the CMA.

~ Thankful that my Red Wings are the Stanley Cup champs...that doesn't mean they have to win every single game during the regular season.

Ok...so how about what I'm NOT Thankful for...

~ Not thankful for the weather.

~ Not thankful for some of my friends who have made my life hell.

~ Not thankful for my allergies taht kick my butt on a regular basis.

~ Not thankful for how I feel at this moment.

But I do hope that you had a Happy Thanksgiving.

Wow...so ok to start to try and catch up...

It seems like forever since I've graced the halls of my blog...but I have been VERY busy...

Going to give an insight to the last couple of weeks...even my Dearest Scribe hasn't been able to see me until recently. So to begin...

Halloween--what great weather we had for Halloween. It was the mid 60's very unusual for October.

Creature creating was fun...which caused for lack of trick or treaters...to scared to come to my door LOL'n.

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November 4th 2008!
Next We have the landmark day of November 4th 2008---a day of change, hope and any other word to describe a miracle. I decided this year to work as an election poll worker. Where I was at people were lined up an hour before we got there...and by the time we opened the lines were out into the street. That wasn't the shocking part. The shocking part was the "challengers" that were there...we had 4 of which were right behind me. They represented the Repubs, The Dems, The Lawyers Assoc, The ACLU, and to my amazement...no provisional ballots, no challenges, nothing. Just 1302 voters...happily voting.I was moved by some of the first time voters who took time to talk to me about why they were voting. Our polling center would cheer all 1st time voters--I kept commenting I didn't think I'd do my Red Wings cheer anywhere but at a Wings game. But we did and we cheered a lot that day. In Michigan I'm glad all the proposals passed. I was FOR expanding stem cell research--the mere thought that we can abolish sickle cell anemia is enough for me. But enough on that thought. Just was a long long night.

Hmmmm...No...Hmmmmm...Maybe...Hmmmm.

Since the Prez debate will be mind boggling enough I thought I'd throw this out there. This sign was in the trunk of a car I had to drive while mine was at the dealership. It just humors me. So tell me what do you think it means?